Heya peep! I've been missing for awhile and I gotta say it hasn't been a good couple of weeks on the ProjectHotMama front. I came down with a really bad case of either stomach flu or food poisoning and basically spend slightly more than a week throwing up most of what I ate and pooping water. The whole thing left me quite weak and even after the toilet adventures were over, it's taking me awhile to get going again.
It's amazing how time passes so quickly. I stopped working out for the week that I was best friends with my toilet bowl because frankly I had no energy to do anything else. Then I recovered and told myself I'd give it a few days for my system to recover and I'd jump right back into the workout.
A few days quickly turned into a two weeks of no workout. Work is slightly crazy this time of year and it was so easy to say "Oh I've had a hard day at work, I think I need a break. So I guess I'll workout tomorrow".
Couple that with the fact that I'm someone who eats when stressed. "It's ok for me to eat the potato chips, I'm gonna be working out again tomorrow."
Recipe for failure.
It was so hard for me to get started again today. First was that sense of utter hopelessness when I stepped on the scales and saw that my efforts had practically gone to naught, with my weight back at what it originally was. This feeling of "why bother if it's so easy to go back again?" started to set it.
And then I thought back a bit. Yes, my weight is back to what I started at, but my clothes still fit better. So guess what? It's not all bad! I'm that little bit more muscle and less fat!
I almost cried thinking about working out again for the first time, and it took every ounce of discipline to force myself to finish. By the time I was done though, I was starting to remember how good working out had made me feel before.
I was severely tempted to restart and start posting again as Day 1, but that would be lying to myself. It would be a lot more useful to me to list my whole journey together with my setbacks and failures.
So yes, I'm back. And I'm gonna go at it hard again.
See you soon!
